Have you ever hurt someone badly? Not by physical means but by your words and actions? It doesn't feel bad if something is hurt physically. For example, if you are walking on road and an ant is killed by you you don't feel that bad or if a mosquito bites you you kill it in a response to get it off you may not feel bad on your conscience, until you are an astute Jain who believe in extreme form of non-violence. But there is another form in which you hurt someone and it is through words. Obviously you can not hurt someone like tree or an animal or another person who doesn't understand your language by your words.
The first form of hurting someone doesn't take the toll on your conscience but its the second form which may leave deep mark on your mind which always remain as a form of memory, maybe if not in conscious then surely in sub-conscious mind. And it feel even worse when the person whom you have hurt by words doesn't say anything. It will make you feel realise that you are the worst person on this earth, who is good for no one. I guess this is a great realisation and worst form of realisation. That's why Gandhi chose the method of non violence, because if someone is creating atrocity on you and you don't response to it through anger but through the pain the person who is hurting you will surely have great feeling of guilt on his conscience. And the condition worsen if you can't express that guilt to anyone.
This is the realisation which I just got. Sometime knowledge really becomes wisdom when you pass through a situation. Like the knowledge feels like it has brought an enlightenment to you. Few weeks back I saw the movie "Manchester by sea" in which the protagonist feels so much of guilt because of his behaviour of alcholism that he feels like he can't be good person ever and he can't do any duty. That's what I feel like it takes things to happen with you to realise how the protagonist must be feeling. Maybe this blog is also a part of the same thing where I know the word "sorry" can't take away the guilt of my conscience and the person to whom I want to say sorry won't even read this blog. But just like a christian who goes to church and confesses his sins and mistakes to the father of the church feels a bit relieved, it is some what similar...where I know I can't get away with the guilt but maybe I may just feel a bit less guilty by writing the blog.
The first form of hurting someone doesn't take the toll on your conscience but its the second form which may leave deep mark on your mind which always remain as a form of memory, maybe if not in conscious then surely in sub-conscious mind. And it feel even worse when the person whom you have hurt by words doesn't say anything. It will make you feel realise that you are the worst person on this earth, who is good for no one. I guess this is a great realisation and worst form of realisation. That's why Gandhi chose the method of non violence, because if someone is creating atrocity on you and you don't response to it through anger but through the pain the person who is hurting you will surely have great feeling of guilt on his conscience. And the condition worsen if you can't express that guilt to anyone.
This is the realisation which I just got. Sometime knowledge really becomes wisdom when you pass through a situation. Like the knowledge feels like it has brought an enlightenment to you. Few weeks back I saw the movie "Manchester by sea" in which the protagonist feels so much of guilt because of his behaviour of alcholism that he feels like he can't be good person ever and he can't do any duty. That's what I feel like it takes things to happen with you to realise how the protagonist must be feeling. Maybe this blog is also a part of the same thing where I know the word "sorry" can't take away the guilt of my conscience and the person to whom I want to say sorry won't even read this blog. But just like a christian who goes to church and confesses his sins and mistakes to the father of the church feels a bit relieved, it is some what similar...where I know I can't get away with the guilt but maybe I may just feel a bit less guilty by writing the blog.
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