Its 7 in the morning, i am unable to sleep. As often i just woke up after a sleep of three hours. It usually happens with me that after three hours of sleep, i wake up, and millions of thoughts keep coming to my head. I cannot sleep for an hour or two. Sometimes i read newspaper through app, sometimes post something randomly on Facebook. Sometimes I start to think about the girls, whom I ping occasionally and i am writing this blog as the same part of "something". Sometimes I think I should write everything which comes to my mind disregarding if anyone will read this post or not. Earlier I used to have diary in which I used to write about this "something" type of thought. I wrote diary to see myself in retrospect, but now i have stopped that. I have few friends, except three, there is no one to whom I can talk about everything. Maybe this is a downside of being unemployed- your mind keeps thinking about something useless.
This blog is not well designed. I am just writing down what is coming to my mind because I think I cannot write everything in 150 characters of Twitter, no one is going to read such a long post about my loneliness on Facebook, or maybe if someone reads then they will comment- "what happened?" Or it may happen that the girl whom I like may stop talking to me or maybe she will not even read the post. I still sounds like a teenager- unsure, confused, who do not know what he wants in life, talking about the single girl.
Whenever I think about the girl I wish she could just know how I feel about her. I have known her obviously through Facebook for five years, ( so you must have understood how big introvert I am). Whenever i think of myself I think how bad I am at continuing a conversation. whenever I message her I do not know what to say after "hi" and that is beginning as well as the end of the conversation. Sometime I ask her about her likes and dislikes but still the conversation does not continue for more than ten minutes. Maybe I do not have much to do, that's why I think a lot. Sometime I feel that I should be daring and say everything which I feel about her but get scared that maybe I will get blocked and the words of song " yun hi" of "Tanu weds Manu" comes to my mind.
If you have born me till now I should tell you a story of my pathetic conversation with a girl of my school. I wish that girl do not read this post otherwise she may feel offended.
So there was a girl in our school. She was good looking, I mean she still is, good at studies. I did not have any crush or anything for her, for whole school life I did not have crush for anyone.So I saw her online. I messaged her, she replied and talked very nicely. I mean I felt so good after talking to her that I said about that thing to one of my good school friend. I do not know how she got to know about that- maybe through her boyfriend, who was also good friend of my school friend and next time I got message from that girl- good luck with your future, don't make fuss about little things and that's The End of story. After that mine friend request was never accepted, I can just see her profile by visiting her Facebook page sometimes.Maybe my post must be sounding totally like a teenager who writes about girl or about crush. But I guess when no one cares about feeling of other person, when no one care to read about useless thing then its better to give a try to dump the stupid feeling by writing about it rather than let it go without being unheard. Many people may not be having time to listen to useless thought of my mind but still I hope someone who is reading this post will comment some soothing words, or maybe if you are reading this post you are also as lonely as me whose mind get filled with thought about some girl whom he can not talk properly. Or maybe the girl about whom I am writing, may read this post by serendipity. God! I wish that story of Serendipity movie or story line of any of the romantic movie to happen with me. Or maybe someday she just visit my profile and find the link of the blog and read this blog.
Such a confusing post, sorry for talking like a foolish and thanks for reading.
This blog is not well designed. I am just writing down what is coming to my mind because I think I cannot write everything in 150 characters of Twitter, no one is going to read such a long post about my loneliness on Facebook, or maybe if someone reads then they will comment- "what happened?" Or it may happen that the girl whom I like may stop talking to me or maybe she will not even read the post. I still sounds like a teenager- unsure, confused, who do not know what he wants in life, talking about the single girl.
Whenever I think about the girl I wish she could just know how I feel about her. I have known her obviously through Facebook for five years, ( so you must have understood how big introvert I am). Whenever i think of myself I think how bad I am at continuing a conversation. whenever I message her I do not know what to say after "hi" and that is beginning as well as the end of the conversation. Sometime I ask her about her likes and dislikes but still the conversation does not continue for more than ten minutes. Maybe I do not have much to do, that's why I think a lot. Sometime I feel that I should be daring and say everything which I feel about her but get scared that maybe I will get blocked and the words of song " yun hi" of "Tanu weds Manu" comes to my mind.
If you have born me till now I should tell you a story of my pathetic conversation with a girl of my school. I wish that girl do not read this post otherwise she may feel offended.
So there was a girl in our school. She was good looking, I mean she still is, good at studies. I did not have any crush or anything for her, for whole school life I did not have crush for anyone.So I saw her online. I messaged her, she replied and talked very nicely. I mean I felt so good after talking to her that I said about that thing to one of my good school friend. I do not know how she got to know about that- maybe through her boyfriend, who was also good friend of my school friend and next time I got message from that girl- good luck with your future, don't make fuss about little things and that's The End of story. After that mine friend request was never accepted, I can just see her profile by visiting her Facebook page sometimes.Maybe my post must be sounding totally like a teenager who writes about girl or about crush. But I guess when no one cares about feeling of other person, when no one care to read about useless thing then its better to give a try to dump the stupid feeling by writing about it rather than let it go without being unheard. Many people may not be having time to listen to useless thought of my mind but still I hope someone who is reading this post will comment some soothing words, or maybe if you are reading this post you are also as lonely as me whose mind get filled with thought about some girl whom he can not talk properly. Or maybe the girl about whom I am writing, may read this post by serendipity. God! I wish that story of Serendipity movie or story line of any of the romantic movie to happen with me. Or maybe someday she just visit my profile and find the link of the blog and read this blog.
Such a confusing post, sorry for talking like a foolish and thanks for reading.
Marut Bhaiya, I guess you have my number to call when you're feeling lonely. May help. May not.
ReplyDeleteAlso, why the time of post is in the evening when you posted it in the morning.
Ye to mujhe pata hi nahi tha. . .marut thums up :)
ReplyDeleteYe to mujhe pata hi nahi tha. . .marut thums up :)
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